side note(s)...

1. my brother eats everything in the house!!!! literally, every time i go look for something to eat my bother has already ate it!!! it gets annoying sometimes just saying...

2. i usually try to post at the end of the day around 10pm; for those of you who follow my blog closely. so if you are looking for a new post it will more then likely be in the evening.

i have been crazy busy this last week and have many drafts i'm working on. many new posts to come, but today i just wanted to write how i'm feeling...

hopefully i'm not alone in this, but at times this little one just feels downright defeated. i was on the computer all day trying to get various things done for church and school and it seems like nothing was working out. the thought of having to go over all these things again tomorrow is not very appealing.

then to top that off, i found out that something i had been praying about was not going to work. as a result, to put it simple, i was extremely frustrated. i felt like my whole day was wasted and i had nothing to show for it. feeling so down and wanting to give up, i decided to take a break. i went and got something to eat, took a step away from what I was doing, and listened to music for a bit.

as i was listening to music the song "i smile" by kirk franklin came on and it gave me some encouragement. one line in the chorus says, "i know God is working so i smile." many times i have heard it takes more muscles to frown then it does to smile. so i figured i was too blessed to be sulking in this insignificant amount of "defeat." turning that frown upside down and being grateful for all the things the Lord has done did the trick. i had the courage to try one more time to accomplish the tasks i had been working on; and to my surprise i actually was able to get some work done!

in life we don't always see the work that God is doing behind the scenes, but that doesn't mean that he's without a plan. maybe he saved me more money on my textbooks, that i waited until the last min to order or maybe it's just not yet his timing to meet that particular need. the Lord hears us, He knows and that's all that matters! =] until next time <3 xoxo <3